I’ve been really bored lately.
Normally, I’m really careful about how I allot my time–time management is the key to getting it all done, right? Typically, our week is filled with activities and deadlines and responsibilities. And I thrive on that.
But then there’s this summer, which is somehow devoid of deadlines. Somehow filled up with nothingness. But this whole being bored thing has freed me to do things I wouldn’t normally do.
Like jumping off the diving board with the kids, even though my cannonball splash is sort of lame. Or watching movies I’d usually pass over (today I saw X-men First Class, and it was awesome). Sitting on the porch to let my hair dry in this baking heat, because it doesn’t really matter how long it takes. Looking at the clock and realizing I still have several more hours to kill before dinner.
Being the good girl that I am, every time I realize I’m enjoying the boredom, I start to feel guilty. I think it’s easier for John, because he knows that this tranquility is just a tradeoff for the insanity that awaits him the first week of August. His downtime is well-deserved. Mine is just the result of not having enough work coming in right now. Not so much deserved, as a giant waste of time.
Then today, my friend Retta posted this excellent link to a blog about the importance of being bored and its positive impact on creativity. Retta posts all kinds of great links like this, which is why she’s one of my favorite people, even though we’ve never met in person. (which is totally going to change!)
So thanks to this post, I’m shoving my good girl guilt away from me with both hands, at full force. Take that guilt! (Rare aggressive moment)
And instead, I’m going back to what I was doing….which was, um, nothing. The time of day when I don’t feel conspicuous opening a beer on the porch is getting earlier and earlier…
But wait? What’s this? Just like the blog posts says…something sort of amazing is starting to develop out of all this downtime. Being bored has forced my mind to rest and regenerate.
Suddenly I want to cook elaborate meals, write stories, clean the house, clear every single thing out of my house and simplify, read every inspiring blog post I’ve ever “favorited” on Twitter, take a photo of everything I see, plan a trip across the country. I want to write, write, write! I want to bring in new clients and put my head together with old ones and share all these ideas! I want to make money! (Which would really be a good idea; trust me).
Sigh. I exhaust myself with all this ambition and productivity. Right now I’m just going to go take a nap. Which, is just code for “go generate more awesome ideas through boredom.” But you knew that.
Look for my next post on how I got a ton of stuff accomplished. Yeah…Should be any day now…